re-opening old wounds
Today the BBC reported that Doctors are now confident that they can successfully transplant a uterus that would carry a pregnancy to term.
On face value this is excellent amazing news, news that should fill people like me with hope but when you read the detail it is not expected to be used in clinical practice for many years. This will no doubt be when I and many others like me am too old.
Susan Seenan of the UK's Infertility Network said, " There is life beyond having children, and while the disappointment may never leave you, with the right support people can find other paths to fulfilment."
This sort of statement is shocking but heavily implies that this particular woman never wanted children or never had any difficulty conceiving.
Being diagnosed with MRKH is incredibly difficult for an individual, you feel isolated, angry, loose a sense of self worth and may struggle to find direction. For quite a while I couldn't talk about it, I felt miss understood and ashamed.
I was diagnosed aged 17. Even after all this time, having come to terms with my infetility and family limitations seeing this has opened the old wound. Reading this womans comments and insensitivity is heart breaking and I remain frustrated that I am unable to find the words to express myself articulately now.
Years never take away that sense of humiliation from the doctors exams or all of the scans. The feeling of having no control over your life and the basic decisions most women have. The fear and anxiety over becoming intimate with another person knowing that you are different leaves you so scared of rejection on those grounds.
Today I feel as though I have had the wind knocked out of me. I never expected to feel much about the news, not this much anyway. I guess it is time to put the feelings back in the box and remember that life is what you make of it and I have a lot ot be thankful for.
On face value this is excellent amazing news, news that should fill people like me with hope but when you read the detail it is not expected to be used in clinical practice for many years. This will no doubt be when I and many others like me am too old.
Susan Seenan of the UK's Infertility Network said, " There is life beyond having children, and while the disappointment may never leave you, with the right support people can find other paths to fulfilment."
This sort of statement is shocking but heavily implies that this particular woman never wanted children or never had any difficulty conceiving.
Being diagnosed with MRKH is incredibly difficult for an individual, you feel isolated, angry, loose a sense of self worth and may struggle to find direction. For quite a while I couldn't talk about it, I felt miss understood and ashamed.
I was diagnosed aged 17. Even after all this time, having come to terms with my infetility and family limitations seeing this has opened the old wound. Reading this womans comments and insensitivity is heart breaking and I remain frustrated that I am unable to find the words to express myself articulately now.
Years never take away that sense of humiliation from the doctors exams or all of the scans. The feeling of having no control over your life and the basic decisions most women have. The fear and anxiety over becoming intimate with another person knowing that you are different leaves you so scared of rejection on those grounds.
Today I feel as though I have had the wind knocked out of me. I never expected to feel much about the news, not this much anyway. I guess it is time to put the feelings back in the box and remember that life is what you make of it and I have a lot ot be thankful for.
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