1st-2nd September
It's been a while since I last sat down and updated this so here goes.
Tom and I spent last weekend together but it started with an omen (if you believe in those things and I don't) and went kind of down hill from there.
The postman delievered more of those white envelopes Saturday Morning, one was the GMC saying they had asked the JPH to advise if my consultant had an other complaints against her. Big deal. The other was a response to my complaint about her direct to the hospital. It's important to note that she did not apologise or admit any error even though she had wrongly diagnosed me and treated me with harmful medication. In fact, she went as far as to say that it was my body being different that was the problem which laughingly proved my point rather than hers, as she had known I had a slightly different anatomy she should have looked harder as she had already pointed out that, "it is known that with these types of congenital abnormalities that organs can be in different locations" this being such she obviously couldn't be bothered to do her own job properly.
In regards to my concern that she had given me harmful medication she said that plenty of women take the contraceptive pill and do not get ill, which according to her is a higher doseage.
Again she proved my point. I was prescribed 50mg oestrogen daily for the rest of my life, women on the pill take either a progesterone only pill or a combination of oestrogen and progesterone. In the mostly commonly used combined pill in the UK there is 30mg of oestrogen and 150mg of progesterone. The side effects I described are symptoms of oestrogen domincance which is when the body has too much oestrogen and not enough progesterone to counter it. The female body needs 4 times as much progesterone as oestrogen but she failed to consider this.
My response to the letters was to try and write a letter straight back but Tom didn't look happy about it and clearly wanted to enjoy his weekend off. In the end I gave up and tried my stepford rach routine. Works nicely for him but I spent the night with one bad dream after the other waking between each for just long enough to feel miserable and disorientated.
By sunday afternoon we had argued to the point where he grabbed me by the throat and squeezed for walking away from him. I don't know what he thought it would achieve but I just took his keys left the house and locked him inside. I will not be hurt like that. We made up in the end, stupid argument but I was really upset about the letters still and never being allowed to deal with them when he is there. Being with someone is supposed to be about supporting eachother through the bad as well as the good times, and I know we have been through a lot of dark days recently but I still need a hand to hold in mine when it all gets too much.
Tom and I spent last weekend together but it started with an omen (if you believe in those things and I don't) and went kind of down hill from there.
The postman delievered more of those white envelopes Saturday Morning, one was the GMC saying they had asked the JPH to advise if my consultant had an other complaints against her. Big deal. The other was a response to my complaint about her direct to the hospital. It's important to note that she did not apologise or admit any error even though she had wrongly diagnosed me and treated me with harmful medication. In fact, she went as far as to say that it was my body being different that was the problem which laughingly proved my point rather than hers, as she had known I had a slightly different anatomy she should have looked harder as she had already pointed out that, "it is known that with these types of congenital abnormalities that organs can be in different locations" this being such she obviously couldn't be bothered to do her own job properly.
In regards to my concern that she had given me harmful medication she said that plenty of women take the contraceptive pill and do not get ill, which according to her is a higher doseage.
Again she proved my point. I was prescribed 50mg oestrogen daily for the rest of my life, women on the pill take either a progesterone only pill or a combination of oestrogen and progesterone. In the mostly commonly used combined pill in the UK there is 30mg of oestrogen and 150mg of progesterone. The side effects I described are symptoms of oestrogen domincance which is when the body has too much oestrogen and not enough progesterone to counter it. The female body needs 4 times as much progesterone as oestrogen but she failed to consider this.
My response to the letters was to try and write a letter straight back but Tom didn't look happy about it and clearly wanted to enjoy his weekend off. In the end I gave up and tried my stepford rach routine. Works nicely for him but I spent the night with one bad dream after the other waking between each for just long enough to feel miserable and disorientated.
By sunday afternoon we had argued to the point where he grabbed me by the throat and squeezed for walking away from him. I don't know what he thought it would achieve but I just took his keys left the house and locked him inside. I will not be hurt like that. We made up in the end, stupid argument but I was really upset about the letters still and never being allowed to deal with them when he is there. Being with someone is supposed to be about supporting eachother through the bad as well as the good times, and I know we have been through a lot of dark days recently but I still need a hand to hold in mine when it all gets too much.
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